Last Friday, when I first got the news that a friend of mine passed away, I felt like perhaps I was going to be a bit alienated from the whole grief process; he and I had never been extremely close and to be honest, we hadn't spoken in three years or so. I'm not quite sure why I thought that would exempt me from the hurt of this situation.
We might not have been bffs or anything, but we still have memories together. Most of all, I have known his family for the same 10 or so years and have a great deal of love and respect for them, specifically his parents. Since I moved home a year ago, they have offered unexplainable amounts of support and love. That's where the vast majority of my grief has been directed: my heart breaks for these parents who have had to experience the kind of tragedy no one should.
Addiction took my friend away. Made him into a person he didn't even realize he was. Addiction has brought a whole world of hurt down on people who never could have deserved it. Brought scars into the memories, jaded us all forever.
In the last day or so, I find that my grief is moving towards deep sadness for the girlfriend he left behind. In my mind, I keep putting myself in her place and can't keep from crying every time. I know how very much I love Grady, how wonderful everything is in our little world, how we love to talk of things yet to come; they had a past, a present, and plans for a future, but none of those dreams and expectations will ever be fulfilled.
The Lord is sovereign. The Lord is sovereign...
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Everything Keeps Changing
and that's a very good thing.
Since the last post, the mister has moved out of Waco and into the new apartment! It's really nice and that's pretty much where I am if I'm not at school, work, or church. Grady's gotten through almost all of his training at Allen PD--he's only still working on the police radio because the woman now in charge of training him has a whole arsenal of excuses for not doing so... That aside, the whole job thing is going well for him, which makes us both happy! He's currently working night shift, 10pm-6am, and that's been a little weird but mostly amusing in conversation and meal decisions. When I'm wanting some dinner, Grady is waking up and wanting breakfast; when he leaves work at 6am, all he wants is dinner but IHOP and Denny's aside, there are few/no places serving anything besides breakfast exclusively. Regardless, this schedule works well enough for us because he sleeps while I'm in school or doing homework mostly and our "free time" (as if such a thing exists...) is available to be spent together!
In the same span of time, I have wrapped up a quarter and begun another. Everything from summer quarter turned out nicely with mostly A's and B's-- the only C was from my design class where the teacher refused to take a grade for the month's worth of homework that I had to do late because my dominant arm was in a sling... An issue to take to the dean? Yes. Do I have the time or energy to fight this battle? No. I came out of the quarter with a 3.1 so I'm still pleased. This quarter now is ridiculously insane, but the best challenge I've had in a long time! I am taking 18 credit hours (which translates to 24 in class hours) and working two jobs (Saxbys Coffee Barista and a Baking TA at school). At least the class load is filled with mostly fun classes! I'm taking Supervision and Career Development, Cost Control, Beverage Identification, Advanced Patisseries, and Chocolates, Confectioneries, and Centerpieces. I find it really forces me to stay on top of my homeworking, although I'd like to be ahead of my homeworking. Perhaps that's asking a bit much for now; hopefully this Friday (Oct 30), a randomly gifted day off of work, I will be able to bust out a lot of recipe cards and cost a most of my recipes for Cost Control.
With all of this craziness, you should know that I am the happiest girl in the world. No matter how tough a day has been or how frustrated/stressed I become, I know that there's only a half hour drive at most to get to the most fabulous and wonderful guy who will do practically anything to make me smile again. We finally get to do that couple's stuff that I've been waiting patiently (and some days impatiently) for for the past three years. We can take walks, watch movies or shows, read, work out, eat meals, take time to worship and praise God, play with our puppy! The last two and a half months have been wonderful. Face to face discussions and arguments so beat the over-the-phone ones. We've learned so much more about each other and grown as a couple in really great ways. Even when I'm not happy, I'm happier than I've ever been before.
Since the last post, the mister has moved out of Waco and into the new apartment! It's really nice and that's pretty much where I am if I'm not at school, work, or church. Grady's gotten through almost all of his training at Allen PD--he's only still working on the police radio because the woman now in charge of training him has a whole arsenal of excuses for not doing so... That aside, the whole job thing is going well for him, which makes us both happy! He's currently working night shift, 10pm-6am, and that's been a little weird but mostly amusing in conversation and meal decisions. When I'm wanting some dinner, Grady is waking up and wanting breakfast; when he leaves work at 6am, all he wants is dinner but IHOP and Denny's aside, there are few/no places serving anything besides breakfast exclusively. Regardless, this schedule works well enough for us because he sleeps while I'm in school or doing homework mostly and our "free time" (as if such a thing exists...) is available to be spent together!
In the same span of time, I have wrapped up a quarter and begun another. Everything from summer quarter turned out nicely with mostly A's and B's-- the only C was from my design class where the teacher refused to take a grade for the month's worth of homework that I had to do late because my dominant arm was in a sling... An issue to take to the dean? Yes. Do I have the time or energy to fight this battle? No. I came out of the quarter with a 3.1 so I'm still pleased. This quarter now is ridiculously insane, but the best challenge I've had in a long time! I am taking 18 credit hours (which translates to 24 in class hours) and working two jobs (Saxbys Coffee Barista and a Baking TA at school). At least the class load is filled with mostly fun classes! I'm taking Supervision and Career Development, Cost Control, Beverage Identification, Advanced Patisseries, and Chocolates, Confectioneries, and Centerpieces. I find it really forces me to stay on top of my homeworking, although I'd like to be ahead of my homeworking. Perhaps that's asking a bit much for now; hopefully this Friday (Oct 30), a randomly gifted day off of work, I will be able to bust out a lot of recipe cards and cost a most of my recipes for Cost Control.
With all of this craziness, you should know that I am the happiest girl in the world. No matter how tough a day has been or how frustrated/stressed I become, I know that there's only a half hour drive at most to get to the most fabulous and wonderful guy who will do practically anything to make me smile again. We finally get to do that couple's stuff that I've been waiting patiently (and some days impatiently) for for the past three years. We can take walks, watch movies or shows, read, work out, eat meals, take time to worship and praise God, play with our puppy! The last two and a half months have been wonderful. Face to face discussions and arguments so beat the over-the-phone ones. We've learned so much more about each other and grown as a couple in really great ways. Even when I'm not happy, I'm happier than I've ever been before.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Whoo Who!
I only have one week left in the long distance portion of my relationship!
Grady got the job with Allen PD and starts work on Monday, August 24th. His last day of work in Waco will be Thursday, August 20th; Grady's father, brother, and I are driving down to Waco frickin' early on Friday, August 21st to get all of the furniture and whatnot out of Grady's current apartment and move him up here! He'll have to live with his 'rents for a week seeing as his new apartment won't be ready for move in until the 29th.
Wanna see where Grady's going to be living? Times Square is mighty pretty; read a bit and have fun! He'll be in a one bedroom A9 plan, which isn't listed on the web page, but it's the same layout as the A6, but 830-something sqft instead of 787 sqft. We also negotiated the same price for the A9 as he would have gotten for the A6. :) He'll be on the fifth floor (and there are elevators)!
I am absolutely in love with his bathroom-to-be; I have honestly never seen a bathroom this big or nice in any apartment ever! I'll be sure to post pictures as soon as we have him moved in!
I'm just so excited to not have to say goodbye anymore. We're so used to being on our own all the time that I'm sure it's going to be incredibly weird being together all the time, but I look forward to driving him crazy, being driven crazy by him, having our first face-to-face fight, and learning how to deal with all of it! I'm more excited about sharing meals, making friends, hanging out, and more together however! People will stop thinking that I've fabricated an imaginary boyfriend :)
Grady got the job with Allen PD and starts work on Monday, August 24th. His last day of work in Waco will be Thursday, August 20th; Grady's father, brother, and I are driving down to Waco frickin' early on Friday, August 21st to get all of the furniture and whatnot out of Grady's current apartment and move him up here! He'll have to live with his 'rents for a week seeing as his new apartment won't be ready for move in until the 29th.
Wanna see where Grady's going to be living? Times Square is mighty pretty; read a bit and have fun! He'll be in a one bedroom A9 plan, which isn't listed on the web page, but it's the same layout as the A6, but 830-something sqft instead of 787 sqft. We also negotiated the same price for the A9 as he would have gotten for the A6. :) He'll be on the fifth floor (and there are elevators)!
I am absolutely in love with his bathroom-to-be; I have honestly never seen a bathroom this big or nice in any apartment ever! I'll be sure to post pictures as soon as we have him moved in!
I'm just so excited to not have to say goodbye anymore. We're so used to being on our own all the time that I'm sure it's going to be incredibly weird being together all the time, but I look forward to driving him crazy, being driven crazy by him, having our first face-to-face fight, and learning how to deal with all of it! I'm more excited about sharing meals, making friends, hanging out, and more together however! People will stop thinking that I've fabricated an imaginary boyfriend :)
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Life Looks Good
I have the best family ever, and that does include the Prices that have so lovingly taken me on as a daughter. It's been a challenging week, to say the least.
For those who don't know, I accidentally rode my bicycle into a park bench last Thursday (July 23) while out with Grady's parents, Ed and Sharon. I sprained my left shoulder (dominant hand, mind you) and needed stitches in my right pointer finger. I earnestly thank God for how lucky I was to not have smashed my head in or broken anything, not to mention for the care administered by Ed and Sharon.
I find it quite endearing actually- Sharon hopped on her bike and took off as fast as possible to get the truck to pick us up while Ed stayed with me, holding my finger together, telling me stories, and helping me calm down. Then the roles swapped- Ed rode his bike home, and Sharon drove me back to the house keeping me comfortable and happy, transferring me over to the car. Even after the trip to the hospital, their care was constant, getting me ice packs, finding me bandages, a sling, and neosporin. They even insisted on transporting me and my car over to my house-sitting job for the weekend. They are amazing people.
Then there's my parents and boyfriend (the latter driving up on his day off to take care of me) who all helped type my homework while I dictated my journals, vocabulary, recipe cards, and other task lists to them. There were even times where something else required my attention, and they would take turns reading and typing in my absence! Mom and Dad have waited on me hand and foot even though I haven't really required that much attention. And Grady probably takes on the most of it, even though he's only been physically with me for a day and a half of this week. I try to be strong and okay with everyone else, but he's had to put up with all of my crying, whining, and moaning. He even took my calls in the middle of the night a couple of times because I hurt too badly to sleep! He's the very best!
Class was entertaining. I was pretty useless... I was great for entertainment and photocopying. Oh and mixing dough starters by hand (literally (gloved, I promise)).
I am starting to feel better, especially with a good nights sleep which at this point is pretty much only on the Price's couch. It is the softest, squishiest, most comfortable couch in the world and I want it to be mine! It also helps that I've always slept on my back on this couch, whereas I'm a belly sleeper everywhere else. I'm thinking about moving back in for a few more days so I can actually sleep and maybe recover faster!
Completely separate from this saga, besides the fact that his name was mentioned, Grady has a panel interview on Tuesday morning for the City of Allen Police Department and a psych/polygraph test on Wednesday, all of which will determine his hiring status with them as a dispatcher. Keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer that he'll do well and get the job? Thanks :)
For those who don't know, I accidentally rode my bicycle into a park bench last Thursday (July 23) while out with Grady's parents, Ed and Sharon. I sprained my left shoulder (dominant hand, mind you) and needed stitches in my right pointer finger. I earnestly thank God for how lucky I was to not have smashed my head in or broken anything, not to mention for the care administered by Ed and Sharon.
I find it quite endearing actually- Sharon hopped on her bike and took off as fast as possible to get the truck to pick us up while Ed stayed with me, holding my finger together, telling me stories, and helping me calm down. Then the roles swapped- Ed rode his bike home, and Sharon drove me back to the house keeping me comfortable and happy, transferring me over to the car. Even after the trip to the hospital, their care was constant, getting me ice packs, finding me bandages, a sling, and neosporin. They even insisted on transporting me and my car over to my house-sitting job for the weekend. They are amazing people.
Then there's my parents and boyfriend (the latter driving up on his day off to take care of me) who all helped type my homework while I dictated my journals, vocabulary, recipe cards, and other task lists to them. There were even times where something else required my attention, and they would take turns reading and typing in my absence! Mom and Dad have waited on me hand and foot even though I haven't really required that much attention. And Grady probably takes on the most of it, even though he's only been physically with me for a day and a half of this week. I try to be strong and okay with everyone else, but he's had to put up with all of my crying, whining, and moaning. He even took my calls in the middle of the night a couple of times because I hurt too badly to sleep! He's the very best!
Class was entertaining. I was pretty useless... I was great for entertainment and photocopying. Oh and mixing dough starters by hand (literally (gloved, I promise)).
I am starting to feel better, especially with a good nights sleep which at this point is pretty much only on the Price's couch. It is the softest, squishiest, most comfortable couch in the world and I want it to be mine! It also helps that I've always slept on my back on this couch, whereas I'm a belly sleeper everywhere else. I'm thinking about moving back in for a few more days so I can actually sleep and maybe recover faster!
Completely separate from this saga, besides the fact that his name was mentioned, Grady has a panel interview on Tuesday morning for the City of Allen Police Department and a psych/polygraph test on Wednesday, all of which will determine his hiring status with them as a dispatcher. Keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer that he'll do well and get the job? Thanks :)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Quarter Four of Six (Fingers crossed)
Monday, the Summer 2009 quarter commenced at the Art Institute and that means vacation is a thing of the past, at least for the next ten weeks. If this week is accurately indicative of how the whole quarter will turn out, I think it'll be my most enjoyable term of all time. We'll just have to see! This term, I am taking fundamentals of design (an art/drawing class run through the fashion design department), oral communication (apparently the same course from Oklahoma doesn't count?), artisan breads (we play with yeast and flour all day), and European cakes and tortes! I think all shall be delightful! I have really great professors for each of my courses, so I anticipate a lot of learning and a lot of fun!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Kind of a Big Deal
I just got off the phone with Chef Nina Hunter, my pastries teacher. We were discussing this weeks work schedule since I'll be her TA for the first half of the week and personal assistant the second half; during this call she called me, and I quote, her "favorite student right now." I know it's not her "favorite student ever," but that would be asking a bit much anyways, don't you think?
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Count Down Update!
It's been a while- sorry! This quarter has been nuts! Lots of fun, but I've been crazy busy for a long while now! Fortunately through all of the insanity, the days have been passing, thus making my countdowns new and exciting numbers!
Grady and my third anniversary- 4 days
End of the quarter- 6 days
Visit DC with AJ and Tracy- 20 days
Start of the new quarter- 31 days
Christmas- 196 days
Graduation- 288 days
On the flip side, here are the rolling tallies:
Grady and I have been together for 1092
I've been alive for 7807 days
Grady and my third anniversary- 4 days
End of the quarter- 6 days
Visit DC with AJ and Tracy- 20 days
Start of the new quarter- 31 days
Christmas- 196 days
Graduation- 288 days
On the flip side, here are the rolling tallies:
Grady and I have been together for 1092
I've been alive for 7807 days
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
A Perfect Fit
I positively love my pastries and confectioneries class on Monday and Tuesday mornings! This week alone, I've had my products used for demonstrations twice! On Monday, I made pâte à choux (eclair paste) for the first time ever and turned out perfect eclairs, cream puffs, and Paris Brest's. See:
Ryan, one of my partners, made the pastry cream, and while I piped out our pastries, he and Mary, the third of our group, made variations of the cream for each pastry: chocolate for eclairs, vanilla for cream puffs, and hazelnut for Paris Brest. Once the pastries were all baked up, Chef Hunter gave a demo on how to fill them and garnish them.
Tuesday was just as delightful- I made a lemon curd tart topped with Italian meringue, of which Chef used to demonstrate how to pipe the meringue on top of the tart with the special tip to make it all pretty and wavy. And she showed us how to torch it too!
Both days, my group has finished an hour ahead of anyone else and so we've been fortunate enough to have time to hang out with Chef and do additional projects. Chef Hunter told me that she has high expectations of me and believes that I could be great at this! I love my Monday and Tuesday mornings so much that I wish I didn't have to take any other savory classes!
New favorite bands: Flight of the Concords.
New favorite restaurant: Kostas Authentic Greek
Ryan, one of my partners, made the pastry cream, and while I piped out our pastries, he and Mary, the third of our group, made variations of the cream for each pastry: chocolate for eclairs, vanilla for cream puffs, and hazelnut for Paris Brest. Once the pastries were all baked up, Chef Hunter gave a demo on how to fill them and garnish them.Tuesday was just as delightful- I made a lemon curd tart topped with Italian meringue, of which Chef used to demonstrate how to pipe the meringue on top of the tart with the special tip to make it all pretty and wavy. And she showed us how to torch it too!
Both days, my group has finished an hour ahead of anyone else and so we've been fortunate enough to have time to hang out with Chef and do additional projects. Chef Hunter told me that she has high expectations of me and believes that I could be great at this! I love my Monday and Tuesday mornings so much that I wish I didn't have to take any other savory classes!
New favorite bands: Flight of the Concords.
New favorite restaurant: Kostas Authentic Greek
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Some Randomness of the Current Times
While everyone is taking their spring break to refresh for the close of their semester, I am starting to hunker down into a study hibernation. As of next Friday (March 27), I am completely finished with the Winter 2009 quarter, my second of seven quarters (maybe eight, depending on whether or not I "double major").
Saturday, I volunteered to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to gain extra credit points working the Best Teen Chef competition. Upon arrival, I was pleasantly surprised that it was actually a work-event, as in they had to pay me! In addition to an entire days worth of class points, I got $7.50 an hour! I know it's not much in the grand scheme of things, but all in all when you walk in expecting to gain $0.00 and you walk out with $60.00, life is good! It was a fun event to work too! AI and Food Network team up to give high schoolers the opportunity to compete to prove that they deserve a full ride scholarship to culinary school! It was a pretty interesting day and I'm more than glad that I got my butt out of bed on one of my few days to sleep past 5am.
Tripp and I have been together for 1005 days, and I just think it's kinda fun to be out of the triple digits! We went on a date last Wednesday (day 999) to celebrate- Pei Wei for dinner and Barnes and Noble for entertainment! I love my little book dork!
I get to go to Arizona in eleven days and I couldn't be more excited! I've missed my seester and brother-in-law, and I especially can't wait to eat my nephew's cute little cheeks!
I've been a slacker and haven't been running for the past few weeks, but I picked it up again yesterday and I positively love it! It completely slays me, but it feels soooo good! I ran 5- 3 minutes yesterday and 3- 5 minutes today and feel great for kicking both of their butts while they kicked mine!
I really need to go read my American Regional Cuisine book for my written final that I'm taking tomorrow...
Saturday, I volunteered to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to gain extra credit points working the Best Teen Chef competition. Upon arrival, I was pleasantly surprised that it was actually a work-event, as in they had to pay me! In addition to an entire days worth of class points, I got $7.50 an hour! I know it's not much in the grand scheme of things, but all in all when you walk in expecting to gain $0.00 and you walk out with $60.00, life is good! It was a fun event to work too! AI and Food Network team up to give high schoolers the opportunity to compete to prove that they deserve a full ride scholarship to culinary school! It was a pretty interesting day and I'm more than glad that I got my butt out of bed on one of my few days to sleep past 5am.
Tripp and I have been together for 1005 days, and I just think it's kinda fun to be out of the triple digits! We went on a date last Wednesday (day 999) to celebrate- Pei Wei for dinner and Barnes and Noble for entertainment! I love my little book dork!
I get to go to Arizona in eleven days and I couldn't be more excited! I've missed my seester and brother-in-law, and I especially can't wait to eat my nephew's cute little cheeks!
I've been a slacker and haven't been running for the past few weeks, but I picked it up again yesterday and I positively love it! It completely slays me, but it feels soooo good! I ran 5- 3 minutes yesterday and 3- 5 minutes today and feel great for kicking both of their butts while they kicked mine!
I really need to go read my American Regional Cuisine book for my written final that I'm taking tomorrow...
Saturday, March 7, 2009
That Silly Beeping Noise!
While doing writing my recipe cards for next week, I am keeping my self entertained by watching Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. [SIDE NOTE: ABC Family has the best movie marathons! I was wanting to have an HP marathon soon, this saves me the efforts and costs of renting them all!] Recall the scene where Harry is the only one awake amongst the Dursleys, wishing himself a happy eleventh birthday; as midnight rolls around, someone's watch beeps.
Although I've seen this moving a number of times, I somehow ended up feeling like an idiot this time around- at the moment the beeping started, I looked up from my cards, scanned the room and called, "Timer!"
I guess I hadn't realized how deeply rooted some of these new practices from the kitchen had already become! Fortunately no one was around to respond to my warning. :)
Although I've seen this moving a number of times, I somehow ended up feeling like an idiot this time around- at the moment the beeping started, I looked up from my cards, scanned the room and called, "Timer!"
I guess I hadn't realized how deeply rooted some of these new practices from the kitchen had already become! Fortunately no one was around to respond to my warning. :)
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
A Random Gem I Found Today
I have so many words and yet none at all!
I guess I can just sum it up with these ones: I love Grady E. Price III!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Visiting My Old Haunt
I am so excited to be going up to Norman, Oklahoma for the weekend! I'll be able to stay for more than one day this time too! I'm looking forward to catching She-sha's rugby match, my first experience with this sport! And of course I'm excited to celebrate Megan's 21st birthday! It still feels weird for me to be 21, so the idea of buying someone else a drink seems pretty crazy too! But what I'm looking forward to most is just being back in the comfort of "home." I've really really missed my girls, my apartment, my Noma... I know things have changed and none of those are "mine" anymore, (except for the girls- they'll always be my girls) but it is so easy to fall right back into the rhythm of it all and feel reconnected.
This week has been especially hellatious, so this weekend of fun and relaxation with my best friends could not be needed any more than it is right now.
In completely unrelated news- I am so tired of my long hair! I'm thinking I'm just going to give in on the bet and let Tripp win! He knew that I would get sick of it and want to chop it off; I'm thinking that's a testament for his understanding of me and thus deserves to win! I hate wearing it down so it's always in a ponytail or bun. And having it all pulled up makes it heavy and so I've been getting headaches! Not worth it. I'm getting it chopped back up to my chin! I don't know when and who by, but it's going to be soon! Very soon! Pictures to come!
This week has been especially hellatious, so this weekend of fun and relaxation with my best friends could not be needed any more than it is right now.
In completely unrelated news- I am so tired of my long hair! I'm thinking I'm just going to give in on the bet and let Tripp win! He knew that I would get sick of it and want to chop it off; I'm thinking that's a testament for his understanding of me and thus deserves to win! I hate wearing it down so it's always in a ponytail or bun. And having it all pulled up makes it heavy and so I've been getting headaches! Not worth it. I'm getting it chopped back up to my chin! I don't know when and who by, but it's going to be soon! Very soon! Pictures to come!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Neverendingrecipewritting...
My hand feels like it might fall off... Recipe writing is the most dreaded of all homework! For example, this week's list looked like:
Golden Gazpacho, Puff Pastry Straws
Warm White Beans, Mesclun Salad & Mango Chutney
Pan-Seared Grouper, Tropical Fruit Salsa
Corn Custard
Rice & Peas
Fried Plantain Chips
Key Lime Pie
Seven menu items, seven cards, right?
No, try ten... I should know this by now, but those longer titles have a 50-50 chance at being a separate recipe.
Okay, so, I realize that three cards more than anticipated doesn't sound like much but golly gee, my hand and wrist are still throbbing!
PLUS this week is an exception since we have a midterm on Wednesday. So take fourteen cards and make it twenty! All of them are due on Tuesday because Chef Knifong prefers to not have to worry about grades on Wednesday besides participation and performance and all of them must be hand written.
That said, I think that I'm going to enjoy the Floribbean studies this week; I most look forward to the Fried Plantain Chips! And maybe I'll find out why the Rice & Peas recipe calls for kidney beans and no peas whatsoever.
Golden Gazpacho, Puff Pastry Straws
Warm White Beans, Mesclun Salad & Mango Chutney
Pan-Seared Grouper, Tropical Fruit Salsa
Corn Custard
Rice & Peas
Fried Plantain Chips
Key Lime Pie
Seven menu items, seven cards, right?
No, try ten... I should know this by now, but those longer titles have a 50-50 chance at being a separate recipe.
Okay, so, I realize that three cards more than anticipated doesn't sound like much but golly gee, my hand and wrist are still throbbing!
PLUS this week is an exception since we have a midterm on Wednesday. So take fourteen cards and make it twenty! All of them are due on Tuesday because Chef Knifong prefers to not have to worry about grades on Wednesday besides participation and performance and all of them must be hand written.
That said, I think that I'm going to enjoy the Floribbean studies this week; I most look forward to the Fried Plantain Chips! And maybe I'll find out why the Rice & Peas recipe calls for kidney beans and no peas whatsoever.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Okay, It's Not THAT Bad...
Let's just act like that last post didn't happen, k? I was just at a rough patch in my day, really frustrated and all I wanted was a hug... A Grady hug at that.
I'm doing better now- I promise :) Although, I will admit that it is a daily battle and I continuously have to make the conscious decision to not allow the sadness I feel make my day go poorly. I had a moment of weakness earlier (more like a couple hours of weakness... details).
Things really are good in my life- I just celebrated my 21st birthday, school is even better this quarter, every single article of clothing I own is currently clean, my portion of the house is almost back to my standards, and I'm finally on the last of the Harry Potter books! All aspects of my life are really going nicely, including my relationship stuff most of the time.
If you do pay attention to anything in the previous post, definitely click on the link! It's my favorite song off of Ingrid Michaelson's cd, Be OK. The whole thing is spectacular, but You and I just makes me smile! Grady and I make a lot of silly promises or goofy deals about what we'll do when we're together and get older, most of which we acknowledge as jokes; this song is pretty much just that- simple togetherness, the inside jokes or random conversations exclusive to a relationship, and love!
I'm doing better now- I promise :) Although, I will admit that it is a daily battle and I continuously have to make the conscious decision to not allow the sadness I feel make my day go poorly. I had a moment of weakness earlier (more like a couple hours of weakness... details).
Things really are good in my life- I just celebrated my 21st birthday, school is even better this quarter, every single article of clothing I own is currently clean, my portion of the house is almost back to my standards, and I'm finally on the last of the Harry Potter books! All aspects of my life are really going nicely, including my relationship stuff most of the time.
If you do pay attention to anything in the previous post, definitely click on the link! It's my favorite song off of Ingrid Michaelson's cd, Be OK. The whole thing is spectacular, but You and I just makes me smile! Grady and I make a lot of silly promises or goofy deals about what we'll do when we're together and get older, most of which we acknowledge as jokes; this song is pretty much just that- simple togetherness, the inside jokes or random conversations exclusive to a relationship, and love!
Whoa Dang...
WARNING: MESSAGE BASED AROUND THE DEPRESSED RAMBLINGS OF A GIRL IN THE MIDST OF THE LONG DISTANCE BLUES
I hadn't realized that I hadn't posted since December! I've kept up, mostly, with everyone else's but I guess I kept feeling like I had written that post relatively recently for some strange reason... If only I had decided to reread it earlier than just now, I might have been able to keep you up-to-date!
So we got through the Christmas season in fabulous fashion- Grady's family is spectacular and a lot of fun. I completely loved being in North Carolina! Most of all, I enjoyed being with Grady day in and day out (relatively) for nearly a month. We haven't gotten to spend more than a week at a time together since the summer '07, however those weeks together have been exceedingly rare as well.
January absolutely flew by, but at the same time it felt like it dragged by. I have to wonder if that month together was really a blessing... I think the way I miss Grady has intensified now that I've had a taste of what I have to look forward to post-graduation. I was lucky enough to get a surprise visit from the mister on Friday- he drove up for my birthday party! That was nice for the 20 or so hours he was with me... And then I kind of just fell back into it, this despair that I can't quite seem to shake.
Everyone keeps telling me that I need to focus on the now, live in the present; please believe me- I'm trying. It's just that after a little more than two and a half years together apart, I'm kind of exhausted. I feel like I'm losing my grip on sanity sometimes... And if it wasn't entirely worth it, if I didn't completely know that Grady is so boss and the cat's pajama's, I'd so call it quits and restore my sanity. But it is worth it and I know how wonderful my Grady is; I also know how much worse I would feel if we took a break, put it on pause, or whatever else you want to call it...
A few things that make me feel better, besides being with him:
1) Looking at pictures
2) Reading letters/texts from him
3) Listening to good music, this one in particular
Oh well, such is life. I'll figure it all out and start to feel better soon I hope.
I hadn't realized that I hadn't posted since December! I've kept up, mostly, with everyone else's but I guess I kept feeling like I had written that post relatively recently for some strange reason... If only I had decided to reread it earlier than just now, I might have been able to keep you up-to-date!
So we got through the Christmas season in fabulous fashion- Grady's family is spectacular and a lot of fun. I completely loved being in North Carolina! Most of all, I enjoyed being with Grady day in and day out (relatively) for nearly a month. We haven't gotten to spend more than a week at a time together since the summer '07, however those weeks together have been exceedingly rare as well.
January absolutely flew by, but at the same time it felt like it dragged by. I have to wonder if that month together was really a blessing... I think the way I miss Grady has intensified now that I've had a taste of what I have to look forward to post-graduation. I was lucky enough to get a surprise visit from the mister on Friday- he drove up for my birthday party! That was nice for the 20 or so hours he was with me... And then I kind of just fell back into it, this despair that I can't quite seem to shake.
Everyone keeps telling me that I need to focus on the now, live in the present; please believe me- I'm trying. It's just that after a little more than two and a half years together apart, I'm kind of exhausted. I feel like I'm losing my grip on sanity sometimes... And if it wasn't entirely worth it, if I didn't completely know that Grady is so boss and the cat's pajama's, I'd so call it quits and restore my sanity. But it is worth it and I know how wonderful my Grady is; I also know how much worse I would feel if we took a break, put it on pause, or whatever else you want to call it...
A few things that make me feel better, besides being with him:
1) Looking at pictures
2) Reading letters/texts from him
3) Listening to good music, this one in particular
Oh well, such is life. I'll figure it all out and start to feel better soon I hope.
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